when you have someone dear to love..

I must have been bad servant lately as i had two TKO (yup.. Total-Knocked-out)weekends in a row. This weekend is even worse as the whole A clans 'collapsed'. Started with Big A having flu on thursday and seemed like he passed to the whole clans thereafter.

The living room turned to be the 'family suite' ward.I was the pesakit tegar as compared to 3As. They were bz hooked on PS2 & internet where I slept and slept and slept until forgot what days it was. What else i could be doing if the Tv & internet were all taken. Terrible huh..?

I feel bad as if i have not been good mami to 3As lately.Everything just seems to be weighing me down for the past 2 weeks or so.I just find it so difficult to stay strong sometimes. At times, i am so mad at myself for i fail in anger management.I wish i could have a lil more patience when it comes to handling 3As. They are just kids.. they cant sit still. I must keep in mind that when they fight it's their way to seek my attention.. mami..dont loose your head! After all,their world revolve around mami.They only have an average of 3 hours to spend with mami on the weekdays.Is that too much to ask for? uhmm..i feel bad.. bad to the bone..

Oh god, I am thankful for blessing me 3 adorable guardian angels.Please give me strength to carry on as I yet to fulfill my duties to you..

at this quiet hour i sat down and whisper to myself
'when you have someone dear to love, love them dearly.. !!'